God's will

about 7:00 tonight someone commented on my last post. i'm not sure who it was, if it is someone i know or not...but anyhow, i liked what they said. about the same time, before ever reading the comment (so maybe it was b/c of their prayers for us) as dave & i were headed out for dinner, i realized all of a sudden the true reality of this whole situation.

basically, we have been focused, extremely focused, since october on paying off credit card debt and getting our finances in order. we know, from reading books like "trust god for your finances" that God wants us to get out of debt, etc. God is blessing us with a tremendous opportunity when he will allow Duke to buy our house. we will make a significant profit. up until this past week we've been waiting for that fairly patiently. we believe that once our credit card debt is paid off that God will see that we can be trusted with little and that He can trust us with a lot, like He wants to do. (Luke 16:10"Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much, and whoever is dishonest with very little will also be dishonest with much."(KJV))

but last weekend when I saw that house for sale I let selfish thoughts of "owning" 2 homes creep in. i thought it would be great. i wanted to be closer to my family, etc. i thought, no big deal, we'll just get a second mortgage for another $180,000. but God humbled us. we overdrew our bank account by $20 this week. we haven't overdrawn our account for a long time. we never wanted to again. but i made some dumb decisions about money. we realized we should not be looking at buying another house right now. we need to first learn to manage our money better and pay for the things we already bought 3 years ago...Romans 13:8 says "Owe no man any thing, but to love one another: for he that loveth another hath fulfilled the law." (KJV) this past week i wasn't even following the love part very well. i began having bitter, hateful feelings towards my neighbors, believing that they're the reason our house has not been purchased yet.

so, that verse has been our motto the past 6 months and we will continue to let that be our motto from now on. this past week was bad. when our house here sells we will be able to buy a modest home and only have a small mortgage for 15 years or something. buying a second house now and adding $180,000 to our debtload is NOT the solution. we were blinded this week with greed and impatience and wanting to be with our families and that was allowing us to be sidetracked into thinking that more debt somehow was the solution. i thank the people who prayed for us and I thank God Almighty for bringing us back to him and His Word!!!!!! =) It's good to be back in his arms, feeling good about life.