the older i get the more perspective i gain....
last night i was going thru a box of old things and i found my diary from dec 1998 thru june 2000. very interesting. i hated high school. complained about it all the time. yet now looking back 6-8 years later i have only fond memories. i was guy crazy. most of the time i was talking about this very handsome young fellow named david neer. one entry detailed a date we had, how we went back to phil & shan's and dave played the drums for me then shan, jessie & jenny came home from jenny's wedding shower. then i went upstairs with jessie & she showed me her barbies and she predicted that david & i would someday get married. i said in closing of that entry something like "i hope she's right..." heheeheheheh... i guess she was :)
it was amazing looking back at how david & i knew the summer of 1999, on our 3 month anniversary, that we wanted to marry each other. i was barely 17 years old! yikes! now when i think of 17 year olds, it scares me to think that they might make such a decision. no wonder everyone thought we were crazy...{it was also amazing how late he stayed over at my house after these dates: 3:25 a.m., 7 a.m., 9 a.m.....hmmmmmmm....not sure how we got away with that....}
anyhow, the point is i felt like my life was so hard then. everything going on was such a big, huge issue. just like i feel now about everything in my life. then i start thinking that in another 6-8 years i will probably look back on this blog and think how silly i was for half of what i talk about. hmmmmmm.... maybe this doesn't seem like such a profound thought to some of you. but i have really only been able to remember things that have happened in my life since i was like 8 years old - a total of 16 years back. so i'm really starting to see the big picture of life, i guess...? so anyhow, i think i'm going to stop over-reacting about everything.
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